Hey there,
As i promised,
in my other post "Wow Oh Wow",
Im now answering the questions,
1. Would they respond?
2. Would they join us?
These questions, has been answered yesterday. It was perfect, at first. -,- . Till everything changed.
When it was the prayers, the parents came. They are really nice couple. Also from Penang. And not selfish as i always thought. We chatted, and till the parents went home.
It was Party Time. There he is, i saw him climbing out of his wall, to come to our party.
I wondered why he never used the gate. But that was nothing to worry of.
So, he came in. Of course, looking hot.
I didnt even recognize him in anyway, as i`ve never seen him before. But i knew it was him as he was coming out of the house. There, he sat at the front table of my friends' long table. He sat there, and just stare. Stare like you dont want him to stare. He is my brother`s friend. But, i did not treat him how i treated the others.
Its unfair. Just unfair. And i admit, im wrong. Im so wrong.
My friends and i were talking about him.
And it was my fault, because i started everything. I AM GUILTY.
My friend, Danial, asked me where is 'this guy' studying at.
So, i said, in Bandar Sri Damansara. I knew that from the conversation i had earlier during lunch with his parents.
Out of my expectation, Danial shouted " hey, you`re studying somewhere in Bandar Sri Damansara, right?"
The hell would i do?
I just turned to Syaz, my friend, and pretended that i was talking to her.
I did not know what my neighbor respond.
but i think he just kept quiet.
So, that`s it.
He knows we were totally talking about him.
and then........
I`m DEAD. FREAKING DEAD.
he kept on staring at us.
IM A DUMB ASS.
Its just so much pity for him, because
my friends and i are laughing to hell,
but he was just sitting there,
not even smiling.
So, when almost everyone got home,
Syazwani, Diyana, Nadia, Elina, Danial and i,
We went to the park,
and enjoyed the view from the top of the park.
We can see like, everything around Sungai Buloh.
In fact, there`s also a view of Kuala Lumpur Convention Center ( KLCC ).
While we were enjoying the view and the strong wind passing us,
Thats the time, i realized what i have done.
I WAS WRONG.
WRONG INDEFINITELY WRONG.
i am supposed to treat my neighbor nicely!
but i didnt !
Im the guilty around here. :'(
For the last one month i`ve been living here,
i always thought that my neighbor is such a jerk,
never wanting to get out of their house to greet us Hi......
But what now?
when He`s here,
What did i do?
I totally act like what i thought HE WAS.
that very night, my heart was never happy.
NEVER happy.
in fact, i worried, and worried, like a crazy woman lost their purse.
I felt guilty and guilty and guilty.
He`s all over my brain cells.
What else can i do?
Im out of ideas.
All i have now,
Is help from Allah S.W.T.
i know that He would understand me.
I know He would.
So, i prayed.
I prayed that He would forgive all my sins for what i`ve done,
I prayed that He would open my neighbor`s heart,
so that my neighbor would forgive me.
that`s all i can do.
but then again,
my heart just never stop beating so fast,
im really scared.
IN MY LIFE, I NEVER WANT ANYBODY TO HATE ME.
Unless, they are the ones who i should put guilt on.
But this time, its my fault. My bloody fault.
My next move,
Is go see him,
say im really sorry for my kiddish actions.
and if he does`not understand me,
i will explain everything.
oh i will,
and ill tell him
that i`ll never disturb him, ever again.
not until he says anything.
i will promise that.
( i just hope that i dare to do so )
All i need from you, the ones ( reading ),
Is to pray me luck.
Pray me luck.
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