We were always meant to be separated but our hearts just never will. She did so much for me that I couldn`t see and "didn`t have the time" to repay all her kindness. May God bless her.
We started off enemies wayyyyyyyy back in 2008 when we were both 11. She was in the fourth class and I was in the third class. I will never forget the thing she said that made us be enemies. Let`s not pick up the old garbage trash tale and get to the point how we became such good friends.
Enemies to Besties
How in the world did that happen? I remembered I kinda swore to myself I`d never be friends with a girl like her. But I guess, He knows better than any of us. And I guess it was my young immature mind making immature decisions.
Dear you,
I have never shown the love I have deep inside my heart for you. Yet you`ve always searched for that one little spot of my love for you i.e. a picture of us as my wallpaper / do i still keep your keychain / do i still remember our favorite words we use to say / do i remember the sleepover we always have and the list goes on when you dont have to! You literally dont have to find a spot for yourself in my heart because you`ve one gigantic spot in it already! Effortlessly, i might add.
Maybe at times you might even think that I dont wonder anymore how are you doing, or what you have for lunch or what music you`re listening to. Its not that Ive turned ignorant, its just sometimes I love someone so much that I dont want them to know, because I dont want them to take granted of it. You, are one of them.
I don`t want you to be someone you`re not. Be who you are because I, Nur Aireen Syafiqah loves you for who you are. Without your crazy ass attitude, I wouldn`t feel like home when I`m around you. It was amazing to have you as one of the people I feel very comfortable with. You`re my sister when I dont have one. You need to know that I dont really show that I love the ones I love the most, you can ask my brothers if you want to. But I guess you dont have to since you know me so well. Come on darling. I love you for who you are.
You might not be on my wallpaper, you might not be the person I think about everyday, you might be the person that I dream of every once in a blue moon, but Puteri Elina Khir Annuar, if one day you`re not there by my side anymore,
Know that I will definitely fall down on my own knees.
You`ve shed more tears for me than I have for you. I apologize for my behavior.
but you also need to know the reason I dont cry when you do. Because if we were to strengthen each other, than we both cant be weak. When I was weak, you were strong. When you were weak, I needed to be strong for you. I dont want to let you down by crying with you. When all I needed to do is to be strong for you. Note the difference.
And if in the future I meet someone new, note that you are the bestfriend, the sister I have had earlier than anyone else. Remember the years we have together. Dont ever compare our friendship with someone in the future that you or I will meet.
And if in the future you find a guy first than I will, then all I wish for you is happiness. But I never want you to forget us. I pray that I too, dont forget us. Getting into a relationship in the future might distance us in certain circumstances (like our one friend tu la - if you know who im talking about) However, I just want the best for you and I hope that guy you call "Boyfriend", would end up to be you "Husband". Amin.
As I have said, you are my home. When I come by to your house, I felt home. When I meet your mum, Im even happier to feel home. I love the fact how your mum welcomes me so much to your home. I`m sorry that my mum is a little different than yours, but at least you`ve met her. To talk of your dad, even better. To have your parents welcome me to your home makes me feel like I have the right to be there because they`ve treated me like you and I are sisters for eternity. I know this doesnt make sense, but just digest it, will ya?
Having you and Nadia is my most comfortable spot anywhere I go. To have our girls together makes it even better. I am happy that I know you. I am happy that we were once enemies. In fact I`m grateful. Because if we weren`t enemies back then, I dont think we would even be besties now. I pray for our friendship to last even longer.
I love you, Elina. Thank you for all the times you`ve spent for me, for all the trust you have upon me, for all the laughs we shared together. Thank you. Im looking forward to more moments with you. Thank you for being a sister and such a good companion since we met. You taught me how to have fun when I`m such a still kid. Damn I miss dancing with you even though we dont know how to dance that well.
Thank you darling. Thank you. Im looking forward to our future together. And also a picture of you riding a unicorn with your future boyfriend / husband.
May God bless our friendship and may it lasts till the end of time.
Kind regards and warmest love,
Aireen.
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