Random Emo Update

Heyheyhey! hahaha was updating my new blog at the top of the roof. so, the words are like WOHOOO. here it is :-

I don't know if i found the true meaning of love,
But i know i found you. 
Im not sure if you're the definition of love,
But if you are, I'm glad you're mine.

Wasn't expecting your presence could be this big,
Didn't know your heart is what mine`s beating to,
Didn't appreciate you when you were always there,
Always did took advantage of your absence that will never be done.

The friendship that we held on to,
That feeling we always denied,
The effort we put to ourselves to make sure we`re both okay,
Is now so useless.

I was confused with what happened,
Its not that i like you,
I'm just in love and i didn't realize,
Was it my fault or can i put the blame on you?

You're a hell of a burden to my brain, 
Always making me think of how you`re doing,
Always putting confusion in myself,
Id call you the heartless devil.

wish we were more than friends,
you know better but you can't help it,
want to tell you but would i be selfish?
how do you heal a heart that doesn't feel its broken?

now that you're leaving,
thats ten times more than the usual weight you put on my shoulder,
if i can punish you, i would,
because i don't think you feel this enormous evanescence I'm dealing with.

Could someone please tell me how do i tell him, 
that he's stuck in my head,
every single time I'm in the car,
looking outside the window.

i have never failed,
to forget you,
i have always been trying to do so,
dying to tell you whats within my feelings.

i now know what was my proposition all this while, 
and the thing was actually such a simple hypothesis,
yet a complicated conclusion can be made..

Hypothesis : the further you move away from me, the higher the level of my lunacy.

Conclusion : I just want you to know whats been in my head and i want to own you before anyone else does. and this separation is driving me towards insanity. By then, you're the only solution to cure this sickness of mine. 

THE END. hahaha sorry its so long. i had a BIG TIME inspiration while I'm on top of the roof. so yea. hope you like it.